Adam Lock - There’s a reason why people close their eyes when they kiss, and we know what it is… (A Clickbait Story)
Rachel lies naked in bed except for the nights she wears glasses to read. I like that she’s naked except for her glasses. Glasses are a male invention. The male gaze. Schaulust.
She hands them over for me to clean—it’s an apology—means no sex.
‘You do a better job than me,’ she says.
Sometimes I listen to books but there’s no substitute for reading yourself.
I say, ‘Tell me about colour.’
‘Colours can be many things,’ she says. ‘The sky is blue, the sea is blue, my eyes are blue.’
‘What about red?’
‘Anger is red, fire is red, my lips are redder than yours.’
She takes back her glasses.
‘I don’t see how so many things can be the same colour,’ I say. ‘What about your hair.’
‘White isn’t really a colour. It’s all the colours pressed together.’
‘Your hair is all the colours?’
‘It’s difficult to explain.’
The house is quiet and I listen to my wrist watch ticking.
‘Do you wish you could see them?’ she asks. ‘Colours?’
Rachel lies in the V of my arm. ‘I remember the first time a man looked at me. Really looked at me. I was fourteen.’
I reach for my book and follow the tiny bumps on the page, the rise and fall of subject, verb, object.
Rachel says, ‘I like when you read me the way you read your books, with your fingers. It makes me feel timeless. Like Marilyn Monroe. Or like the Mona Lisa.’
She takes my hand from the page and presses it against her cheek. I stroke her with the side of my thumb.
She says, ‘I close my eyes when we kiss. Did you know that?’
‘Do you know why people do it?’
She says, ‘Because the brain cannot cope with both visual data and the sensation of kissing. It’s an overload of information.’
‘I don’t have that problem,’ I say.
‘No, instead, when we kiss, your fingers stop moving.’
She sits on my lap and kisses me.
‘You’re right,’ I say.
I hear her smile.
I say, ‘You’ve taken off your glasses.’
She says, ‘Would you like me to tell you all about yellow?’
ADAM LOCK writes in the Black Country, UK. He won the TSS Summer Quarterly Flash Competition 2018, and the STORGY Flash Fiction Competition 2018. He was placed third in the Cambridge Short Story Prize 2017, and has been shortlisted twice for the Bath Flash Fiction Award 2018. He’s had stories appear in various publications such as New Flash Fiction Review, Lost Balloon, MoonPark Review, Fictive Dream, Spelk, Reflex, Retreat West, Fiction Pool, Ellipsis Zine, Ghost Parachute, and many others. His website is adamlock.net and you can find him on Twitter @dazedcharacter